Words Left Unspoken

The hardest thing to understand are the words left unspoken.

I can’t like you, can I?

Whew!

I actually do not know how to start this. I just wanted to vent out how I feel towards you. Yes, you. I don’t exactly know how and when did this start. It just did. I actually have several reasons to like you but there are many to not to.

I have spent some good time with you and those moments, I tell you, made me really happy. Siguro nami-miss ko lang ma-inspire because of a special someone. Sana nga e ganun lang. At sana rin e ganun lang kadali na mawala tong maliit na nararamdaman ko para sayo. Natatakot kasi ako. Parang…ayoko muna. Hehe. Coward as it may sound but yes, I am afraid. I am afraid of what and how I feel about you. You have shown me certain characteristics that I like in a guy. Pero hindi lang naman ikaw ang ganun na kilala ko. Meron pa ngang mga mas gentleman pa sayo! E bakit ikaw ang napansin ko?! Nakakainis ka naman! Ang tangkad mo kasi, nakita tuloy kita! Haha! But seriously, can I ask you a favor? Can you not stay too close to me? Because if you do, I might fall and get trapped in a place where I’ve been before. Let us just stay where we are right now. Don’t come any closer, please. Not yet…not now.

I am afraid because I haven’t known you yet for a long time. This feeling of mine might be and most probably is just a misconception. Sana gusto lang kita kasi natuwa ako sayo sa minsang bonding na nagkaron tayo. Sana gusto lang kita dahil nakita ko sayo ang mga bagay na sadya nga naman talagang nakakapagpakilig sa mga babae. Hindi ko alam na ganun ka pala. 🙂 Alam mo nakakatuwa pa nga kasi naiinis ako sayo nung una. 

Well, let me tell you a short story, I actually didn’t have a good impression on you for the first time. Nainis pa nga ako sayo dahil sa pagka-epal mo, knowing the di pa naman tayo magkakilala non. I even wondered that time how you look like. Kung maka-comment ka sa post ko, akala mo close tayo. Tse! Hahaha! Pero look at us now, friends. You even jokingly uttered one time, “Hoy ano ba, close na nga kame nyan (referring to me)!” Nakakatuwa. Look at me now, writing this whatever I feel for you. 

But you know what, up to this very moment, I am still trying to contradict myself. NO. This can’t be. I can’t like you. I don’t want to like you. I have been in this situation before and I don’t want to be there again. No, not anymore. I have already had a fair share of wrong love. How did I say that it’s wrong? Wala, sinabi ko lang. I just feel it. Eh basta! Yun na yon! 

Oh, basta, ha. Hanggang dito lang muna tayo. Let me observe things first. Siguro naman e nagkakamali lang ako. Ang gentleman mo naman kasi. Nakakainis ka. Well, hopefully, I’ll be able to clarify things out and clear these feelings as well. So, help me God!

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Random Personal Thoughts and Questions.

It is exactly 11:56 PM in my laptop. I am supposed to be sleeping by now but here I am again, typing letters, words and sentences to express things that I wanted to tell you but I haven’t.

I suddenly remembered all the things that we used to do on weekends. We chat. We video call. We laugh. We throw jokes and we exchange stories. We even have shared songs and music videos to one another. Do you still remember that, huh? Hmm. I guess not. What made me say that? I saw your girl posted it in your Timeline. Well, to tell you the truth, I still browse your Facebook Timeline sometimes. I still want to know things about you. How are you now? Are you still here in Manila or you’re back to your hometown? When will you go back to your workplace? I miss you. Oops, can I? Can I miss someone I’ve never been with? I don’t know. I don’t know anything anymore. All I know and feel is that I want to talk with you again. Okay lang kahit mapuyat ako. Diba nga usapan natin, pwede magpuyat basta weekend? Basta walang pasok kinaumagahan? Do you still remember that?

I miss all those times that we talked in the morning. You are actually one of the reasons why I wake up earlier than the usual. My friends even laughed at me when they knew that. Di na rin ako nag-deny. What’s the point? E totoo naman. Hehe. Kumusta ka na ba? Ano nang balita sayo? Nung Valentine’s Day ka pa huling nag-message. Ilang araw na rin. Actually nakalimutan ko na nga yung reason kung bakit ka nag-chat nun e. Can you help me remember?

I miss your voice. Don’t get me wrong, I know you didn’t sing a whole song for me. But I heard you sing once, via Skype. I just forgot what the song was. Can you tell me again? Can we talk again?

Why aren’t you sending me messages anymore? Is it because of me? Are you thinking that I am mad at you? No. I am not. Oh, okay. To be honest, at first, I was really really upset. But I was more hurt than upset. I thought the feeling was mutual. But then again, I guess I was wrong. No, I was really wrong. Funny, isn’t it? But now, I am okay. Truly okay. So, can you send me a message again? Promise, I will send back a message.

I want to ask you a lot of questions. How long did you court her? Were you courting her while chatting with me? Was she the reason why you were using your phone during those times that we were video calling? Were you also chatting with her while we do? If yes, then why, in the first place, did you send me chocolates and continuously chatted along with me? I appreciate whatever reason you have but it could have been better if you just did not. 

We were okay since the day we met. We were not close friends but not enemies either. We talked casually about my father’s project which happened that you drew. We were okay as Facebook friends. Actually, crush nga kita nun e. Hehe. Nung unang beses na nagkita tayo, naging crush na kita. Pero naglaho rin naman yun. Kasi by that time, studyante pa lang ako, ikaw naman, architect na. So sabi ko, walang patutunguhan toh. That was July 2011. Then after 2 years, there goes your chocolate. Hanggang sa nasundan na ng chats every morning, hanggang pati gabi. Tapos nauwi rin tayo sa video call. Ngayon, ano nang nangyari? Nagulat nalang ako isang araw may girlfriend ka na. Hanggang ngayon diko pa rin lubos maisip kung anong dahilan at kung anong pumasok sa isip mo bakit ka nagpadala ng chocolates, alam mong Kuya ang tawag ko sayo pero dun sa note na kasama ng chocolates, pangalan mo lang — walang Kuya. You gave me false hope and I was hurt. Akala ko kasi, yun na. Hindi pala.

Well, di naman ako nagsisisi sa maikling panahon na pinagsamahan natin. Siguro, more on nanghihinayang. Iniisip ko nga, kung di kaya tayo nagkalapit nung mga panahon na yon, ano kaya tayo ngayon? Ano kaya ako ngayon? You inspired me. And to be honest, sabihan na kong tanga ng mga kaibigan ko pero, you still do. 

Kumusta ka na nga pala? Masaya ka ba? Kasi ako, masaya ako para sayo. Pero syempre, to be honest, malungkot ako para sa sarili ko. Just like what I’ve mentioned earlier, I thought we feel the same way. Yun pala, hindi. You’ll be celebrating your 2nd monthsary by next week. Congrats! Going strong, huh? Good luck to the both of you. Oh, don’t mind me. I am okay. Of course, it still hurts a bit but, I am more than okay compared before.

Well, I’d like to confess something to you. There’s this hope within me that makes me feel like we could still have another chance. Do you feel it, too? It seems like there’s something in me that says it may not be now but maybe, in the future. Well, I don’t want to assume and predict anymore, so, I’ll just go with the flow. I know that if it’s really for me, if you’re really for me, we’ll still meet at the end of the road.

So, shall I see you there? Who knows, we may be taking the same road, it’s just happened that you walk faster than I do. Just take care as you walk your path. I do hope that the girl you’re walking with won’t ever let you trip nor stumble. Take care and see you when I see you. 🙂

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I’m Not Missin’ You At All (New Chapter of this Blog)

Hey yow! It has been a long while since I last posted in this blog. Hindi ko alam kung masyado lang ba akong naging tamad o naging busy. Hehe! It’s the 14th of February and everyone seems like having their best day ever. Habang ako, eto, nasa kwarto, nakikinig ng mga kanta ng MYMP at nagsusulat. In short, nag-e-emote. Ni hindi ko nga alam kung may tao bang makakabasa at makakaintindi dito sa mga sinusulat ko e. Since halos lahat ngg nag-follow sakin at finollow ko dito sa WordPress e foreigners. Anyway, okay lang kung anuman. Ang importante e mailabas ko tong nararamdaman ko. Ang sakit kasi e. Nasaktan ako at nasasaktan pa rin hanggang ngayon. Grabe, ‘di ko inakala na ganito pala yung magiging impact nya sakin. I kept on telling my friends that I am okay to only prove something to myself — I can fool them but not the person sitting in front of this laptop and writing her heart out. Ang sakit. He is now happy with his girl and I am indeed happy for him as well. Pero kahit pala sabihin mong tanggap mo na, dimo pa rin maiiwasang masaktan, ano? Akala ko kakampi ko ang universe e, pero mukang hindi pala. O sana, ngayon lang hindi. Hehe. (Oo, umaasa pa rin ako). 

Naramdaman ko na naman yung sakit na naramdaman ko noon. Yung makikita mo yung taong mahal mo na masaya kasama yung mahal nya. Grabe lang. Hehe. Nakakatawa ang takbo ng universe. Gusto ko ulit syang maka-usap, maka-chat ng matagal, maka-skype. Gusto kong bumalik yung dati. Gusto kong malaman nya kung gano ako nasaktan sa ginawa nya. Oo, hindi naging kame. Hindi sya nanligaw. Siguro nga para sa kanya magkaibigan lang talaga kame. Ako lang ba talaga ang umasa? Well, di naman ako galit e. Pero hinding-hindi ko itatanggi na nasaktan ako. SOBRA. At hanggang ngayon, ay nasasaktan pa rin. 😦 Bakit ganun? I kept on asking myself as well as this universe…why? Why not? 😦

Akala ko the feeling was mutual. Nakakatawa. Akala ko lang pala. HAHA! Masyado ko lang sigurong binigyan ng pag-asa yung sarili ko. Masyadong na-overwhelm sa attention na binigay nya. Sa oras, kahit na kaunti lang. Sobra kong na-appreciate yung mga bagay na pinakita nya. All those midnight conversations over Skype at good-morning-ingat-ka-pagpasok chats through Facebook, wala lang pala lahat sa kanya yun. My goodness. Sino nga ba naman kasing pipili ng relasyon na malayuan? Oh, c’mon! Wala naman sigurong taong maghahanap ng sakit ng ulo, diba? Ako lang. Hehe. I tried and I hoped na baka mag-work. I thought it would. I hoped that it would. Kaso, #failed. 

Pero kahit na ano pa mang mangyari, life must go on. Di naman titigil ang buhay dahil lang may taong tapos na (siguro) ang role sa buhay ko. Di naman sya hihinto, lilingon, at babalik dahil lang nadapa ako kasi may iba na syang kasabay maglakad. Nagkataon lang siguro na sadyang mas maswerte lang sya kesa sakin. Mas mabilis sigurong maglakad yung isang yun at mas maingat kaya hindi nadapa. HEHE. LIfe must go on. Saka sabi nga rin nila, if you love someone, you have to set him free. Pero teka, how are you going to set someone free if in the first place, you haven’t even gotten hold of him? Haha! Tama pa ba grammar ko? 

Akala ko hindi ako iiyak ng ganito dahil sa kanya. Akala ko okay na yung iniyak ko nung araw na bumulaga sa News Feed ko na sila na. Akala ko okay na ko nung lumabas ako at nag-milktea kasama yung friend ko. Akala ko nailabas ko na lahat ng sama ng loob ko. Akala ko ubos na kakakwento ko. Akala ko kaya kong lokohin yung sarili ko. Puro akala. Akalang mali naman pala.

Akala ko tapos na ko sa phase na gigising na namumugto ang mga mata. Hindi pala. At mukang hindi mangyayari yun. Dahil hangga’t nagmamahal ka, masasaktan at masasaktan ka.Muntik ko nang makalimutan na package deal nga pala yun. Pero gaya nga ng sabi ko kanina, life must go on. In fact, I should be thankful kasi marunong akong makaramdam, magmahal, masaktan. Sabi nga nila, YOLO – You Only Live Once – kaya sulitin mo na. Oh, sa dami ng emosyon na naramdaman ko na, muka namang maususulit ko ang stay ko dito sa mundo. 🙂

Osya, to you who spent some time reading this, thank you! 🙂

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The Latter :)

Hey yow! 😀

Last week was a not so good week for me. Why? Simply because my worries on the first three days of that week took away all the happiness in me. I was sooo worried because of what I feel to the point that I wasn’t able to appreciate the happiness that I could have had. Anyway, good thing a good friend/colleague of mine spent time talking to me and gave me her unsolicited advice which are very useful! 🙂 So now, I must say that I already know what to do!

Well, the things that I have just shared with you are not the main reasons why I wrote another entry in this blog. The reason is that *drum roll* I want to share with you what happened to the sign that I asked for from Him. Remember? The one I was talking about in my previous blog. Any guess? Haha! Well, we wore the same color of shirt on that day…which means, I would continue talking to him, be his friend and, for me, be happy! Well, God really is so good! 😀

As per what my friend, Ate Lucci, has told me, if I would lift all my concerns to the Lord, I should also trust Him. That’s how it goes. I should trust the Lord with all His plans. HIS plans. I, we, should pray and let the Lord do what He wants to do. We should let Him do the work depending on His will, not ours. 🙂

I have always believed that people should learn from their experiences. And with this experience, I learned that we should have strong faith if we want something to happen. But of course, we should lift everything to the Lord — meaning, we should not expect of the outcomes that we want. We should  trust the Lord and accept all the results whole-heartedly because what He wants or gives will always be the best for us. Again, for the nth time, we should just trust and have faith in Him. 🙂

Thank you! I love You, Lord! 🙂

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Get hurt then be happy or Be happy then get hurt?

Is it okay not to be okay? Actually I have been feeling sad and bothered for the past few days. I can’t really point out the main reason why but, I think this has something to do with what I feel. I think my fear of getting hurt is corrupting the happiness in me. And, I think this is pretty bad. Way too bad than what I’ve expected.

I really don’t know what to write in here. I just want to burst my feelings out. Why here? Simple. I don’t want to disturb my friends. I know that there are also things that bother them so, I don’t want them to think and listen to my sentiments anymore. I don’t want to give them additional burden to think of.

I really don’t know why but since these past few days, I felt like crying when I watch telenovelas. Haha! Funny but I feel so affected and moved by the scene. Maybe I just feel happy for their happy ending. Then would eventually ask myself, “How ’bout me? Well, I am not wishing for a happy ending rather, I wonder when would I ever have a good beginning.”

I think being so afraid of getting hurt steals all the happiness and joy that I may feel. I restrain myself from doing the things that I want to do just to avoid disappointment. Well, in a positive point of view, I think that’s okay. It’s just like guarding my heart and keeping it safe. However, I am thinking, “Isn’t it getting too much?”, “Am I not being overacting? A simple talk won’t harm me that bad, anyway.” Hay! I don’t know. I feel so confused.

Yesterday, I had a talk with my friend over a cup of frozen yogurt. I told her my sentiments and concerns, then she asked me, “Why, aren’t you getting hurt because of what you’re doing? You’re avoiding the person because you don’t want to fall for him nor to get hurt. But, unconsciously, you’re hurting yourself simply because you’re not doing the simple things that can make you happy which, actually, are very easy to do!” Then, boom! A huge lightning bolt struck me to death. Okay, OA. -_- But, seriously, she’s right. I got her point and I clearly understood what she was trying to say. It’s just that, I really do not know what to do. Would I keep myself distant from him? Or would I do what makes me happy?

Whenever I ask myself of what I really want to do or how would I resolve this situation, it all comes to one answer — I.DO.NOT.KNOW! Well, one thing’s for sure.  I don’t want to get hurt…again. That’s it! Then, the rest would be, “Come what may!”

As I was walking to the office this morning, an idea suddenly hit my mind. I am wearing a yellow shirt now and there were a couple of times that we wore same-colored shirts. So, petty it may be but, I asked for a sign. If he’s also wearing yellow today, then I would talk to him again and I would just go with the flow. I won’t care anymore if I might get hurt in the end or not, as long as I am happy, that will be fine. But if he’s not wearing the same color with mine, I would totally forget of what and how I feel about him — regardless of how big or small this feeling is. And another thing, I won’t mind him and whomever he’d talk to. Whew! This is going to be a one time big time pain! Haha! Well, at least, it will be over way really fast. LOL! So, I haven’t seen him yet since this morning. Well, oh, well. I’m ready for this! 😛

So, I think I have to be ready of what’s going to be. I should prepare myself to get hurt and be happy…or, to be happy then get hurt. 😉

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Untitled Sentiment

Hey there! It’s been one month and a week now when he entered the company where I work at. And yes, it has also been a month and a week that I have a crush on him. I feel happy, yes. But as time goes by, I feel a little more scared of what and how I feel. It’s not that I am a philophobic but I just can’t help myself but be afraid of what’s something inside me. I don’t want to get hurt yet. Not again. Yes, I have been hurt before and that caused me so much pain to the point that I am still afraid ’til now. I am happy with how I feel but scared at the same time. Scared that I might totally fall in love with someone but then, AGAIN, the person won’t be there to catch me. Yeah, cheesy! Another thing that I am afraid of? There is this girl whom I think has a secret crush on him, too. Well, “History repeats itself”, as they say. It’s not that I am being too selfish or anything but, I am just afraid that they might fall deeply in love with one another. What’s funny about this? I have noticed that this girl has been befriending me since these past few days. *insert bitter laugh here* Well, I just can’t accept the fact that I might get hurt again…that I would get hurt again. I have had enough of this shitty thing. Hahaha! It’s fine with me if the guy wouldn’t feel the same way as I do. I just pray that this feeling of mine wouldn’t go any farther anymore. I can be happy for them, if they like each other. But not now, please. Let me forget what I feel for the guy first. Haha! Then after that, once I say that I’m fine, go ahead! Go and show the world what you guys really feel for one another!

I just hope and pray that if the guy wouldn’t fall for me, it’s better for me not to fall for him, too. 🙂

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Happiness :)

Hey there! It’s been a long while since I last posted something in here. Well, I guess, my life has been quite boring these past few days, that’s why. Haha! Oh! By the way, before I forget, I’d like to welcome my birth month! Yeah, it’s already the fifth month of the year and I’m already turning 21. Ugh! Haha! So, going back, I just want to share that I am happy. Yes, I.AM.HAPPY. Haha! And I just wish that this happiness of mine would turn into something better as days pass by.

Here’s why…

Some time last month, I was in the office and waiting for the lift to open. Then suddenly, I saw a figure of a guy walking towards my direction. I then turned my head and saw him — yeah, you go it right. The reason why I feel this way. Haha! He saw me then he bowed to me. I don’t know why! Hahaha! I think it’s because he likes watching Japanese movies, listening to Japanese songs, and so on.

Days passed normal as always, except when I see him because I usually giggle and smile ’til my lips hurt. Hahaha! I’ve always asked my Team Leader and our company’s Junior Trainer how his training’s going. And then just yesterday, he has been OFFICIALLY a part of our team! That made me smile, laugh, and giggle all day long! My teammates never stopped teasing me which made me giggle more. Haha!

I am happy, yes. But I hope I won’t get hurt too much in the end. I am happy but afraid and scared at the same time because I have felt this feeling before. I’ve always been like this before. Happy at first but then, would get hurt eventually and I am tired of it. Yes, tired of feeling that way. I just wish that I can control this feeling of mine and be able to take care of my heart. I’m not being so negative here, I am just trying to state a fact — a fact that’s sooo possible to happen.

But anyway, I guess I just have to chill and make things look normal. Take everything normal. And, I am confident enough because I surrender my feelings to the Lord and I know that He will not let me down nor let me get hurt. The feeling might not be mutual but at least, not getting hurt in the end isn’t bad at all.

I am happy. That’s all that matters right now. I just hope that I would be able to manage whatever consequence this happiness would bring in the end. 🙂

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Dear Future Mate…

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I have been attending a Bible Study Group in the office these past few months. I must say that, yeah, I do enjoy it. I enjoy the theme which is about finding the “right one” and I also enjoy the company of those I go with. Two weeks ago, we were asked to write a letter that we would dedicate to our future mate. At first, I thought that it was funny but I felt excited because I have been dreaming of writing a letter to the one I truly love but, yeah, unfortunately I don’t have one yet. So, I grabbed this opportunity to write my heart out. And since this is a personal blog, I decided to put it here and share with you, guys, how cheesy I am. Hahaha! So, here’s what I wrote (Just don’t mind the grammar lapses, please. :P) :

Dear Future Mate,

Hi, Honey! How are you? You don’t know how happy I am when I met you. After God-knows-how-long, at last, I found you! Thank you for taking care of me, for loving me, for accepting who I am and who I am not, for believing in me, and for trusting me. Thank you for listening to me and for understanding everything in me. I am so lucky to finally have you. Hindi ko alam kung ano mabuting ginawa ko para ibigay ka ni Lord sa akin. Totoo nga ang sabi nila, “All good things come to those who wait.” Well, you’re not just a good thing, Honey, you’re one of the best things I’ve ever had.

I am so sorry for all my short comings. Hindi ko alam kung saan ka humuhugot ng pasensya para sa katigasan ng ulo ko. I am very thankful to meet a very optimistic person like you. You never fail to listen and to give me your best advices sa tuwing nagrereklamo ako sa kung anu-ano. You are not only my boyfriend, you are also my best friend, adviser, critic and brother. Words cannot express how much I love you and how thankful I am having you in my life. I am not perfect and I know that we may have the downsides of our relationship sometimes, but I know that we can overcome all those trials that we may/may have been encountered because we know that God is in the center of our relationship. Let’s keep it that way, Honey. I know that there will still be loads of problems that we may encounter but I know that with God’s guidance, we will overcome them all. 

I know that we still have to go a long way, Honey. Pero, alam ko na kakayanin natin ‘yon. Kapit lang, Honey. Kapit lang tayo sa Kanya at kapit lang tayo sa isa’t-isa. 

Thank you for everything, Hon. God Bless! 

I love you! 🙂 

Love, 

HoneyLove ^_^

Haaaaay. Haha! Yeah, literally, I sighed after finishing that one. Actually, I think it’s not the best one that I could ever write because of course, I was just imagining, and worse, I cannot/do not imagine someone while I was writing that one. I can’t even imagine saying that to my crush. Haha!

Well, I guess, that’s it. Haha! ^_^ (I just don’t know how to end this entry. :P)

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And all these Little Things :)

little things The best things in life are

^_^ RANDOM THINGS THAT MAKE ME GIGGLE ^_^

Rising Sun. Oh! How I love to see the sun rising and shining brightly! I feel so refreshed, revitalized and recharged whenever I wake up because of the sun’s rays peeking through the tiny spaces of my window. It’s way much better than waking up because of my annoying alarm clock or blasting sounds from my neighbor’s speakers!

Children Laughing. Children’s laughs are so contagious! There was this moment when I was really mad because of some petty things then my nephews suddenly went in my room, where I was, then tried to wear their wacky faces just to make me laugh! Hahaha! That was really funny because they even laughed at themselves which made me laugh as well! Oh, cute little nephews!

E-mails from a friend. I have been receiving a lot of e-mails from a friend these past few days. We just talk about random things and we sometimes even tease each other. Haha! I used to receive non-sense e-mails and online messages before, too! Those were from my college friends and I think, I still have some of those until now. It’s just feels so good to read them again. 🙂

Morning Greetings. Who won’t be happy when you receive a morning greeting from an office mate when you get in the office? This is one of the best day starters so this will really be a big deal for me. I also do greet most of my office mates everyday because I know how good it feels to be greeted so I assume, and I hope, that they feel the same way. 🙂

Sticky Notes with Random Messages. Oh how good it is to receive one! I already have lots of these and, not only messages on sticky notes but on sheets of paper as well! There were messages like, “Have a good day!”, “Smile!”, “Thank you!”, and etc. I really feel special when I receive something like these. I just feel so appreciated and loved. And for the givers, I just can’t imagine how thoughtful they are!

Back Hug. This is one of the best things in life! I have this sweet friend of mine and she always surprises me because of her back hugs whenever she sees me. I find it really sweet and surprising! ^_^

Taking Pictures. I have been fascinated by taking pictures of random things these past few weeks. I don’t know why. Haha! I see a lot of good photos in the internet plus, I have this colleague of mine who patiently teaches me how to get a perfect shot! I haven’t got a perfect one, though. Hahaha!

Unexpected Text Messages. Same with receiving post it notes, reading unexpected text messages also make me giggle. I feel glad when I receive a text message that says, “Hi, Jheng! I miss you!”, Hi, Jheng! Good morning!” and so on. I feel so glad to know that someone remembers me on an ordinary day.

There are actually lots of simple things that can make someone’s day really special. Be creative. Be thoughtful. If you’re thinking of a good thing to show to your friend, do it! Who knows? It might complete their day! ^_^

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“When will my life begin…”

3I have always been a hopeless romantic. Someone who patiently waits for the person to come in my life who’d make me feel extra special. Yeah, I feel special because of my friends and family who’s always been there for me. But, admit it or not, I think it really feels so good to have someone special beside me who’d say that I’m his.

I’ve always been dreaming of walking somewhere with someone…

Eating at a lovely place with a loving person…

Sitting at a great spot with the best person I could ever have…

Dreaming about random things with the person I’ve dreamt about…

Talking about anything with the person who has been the word of my mouth…

Looking and wandering anywhere with the person I’ve imagined to be with…

I just wonder…when will this person ever come?

When will I meet the person I’ve been looking for?

When will I stop dreaming and wishing?

When will I be emotionally happy?

When will my life…begin?

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