Words Left Unspoken

The hardest thing to understand are the words left unspoken.

Happiness :)

Hey there! It’s been a long while since I last posted something in here. Well, I guess, my life has been quite boring these past few days, that’s why. Haha! Oh! By the way, before I forget, I’d like to welcome my birth month! Yeah, it’s already the fifth month of the year and I’m already turning 21. Ugh! Haha! So, going back, I just want to share that I am happy. Yes, I.AM.HAPPY. Haha! And I just wish that this happiness of mine would turn into something better as days pass by.

Here’s why…

Some time last month, I was in the office and waiting for the lift to open. Then suddenly, I saw a figure of a guy walking towards my direction. I then turned my head and saw him — yeah, you go it right. The reason why I feel this way. Haha! He saw me then he bowed to me. I don’t know why! Hahaha! I think it’s because he likes watching Japanese movies, listening to Japanese songs, and so on.

Days passed normal as always, except when I see him because I usually giggle and smile ’til my lips hurt. Hahaha! I’ve always asked my Team Leader and our company’s Junior Trainer how his training’s going. And then just yesterday, he has been OFFICIALLY a part of our team! That made me smile, laugh, and giggle all day long! My teammates never stopped teasing me which made me giggle more. Haha!

I am happy, yes. But I hope I won’t get hurt too much in the end. I am happy but afraid and scared at the same time because I have felt this feeling before. I’ve always been like this before. Happy at first but then, would get hurt eventually and I am tired of it. Yes, tired of feeling that way. I just wish that I can control this feeling of mine and be able to take care of my heart. I’m not being so negative here, I am just trying to state a fact — a fact that’s sooo possible to happen.

But anyway, I guess I just have to chill and make things look normal. Take everything normal. And, I am confident enough because I surrender my feelings to the Lord and I know that He will not let me down nor let me get hurt. The feeling might not be mutual but at least, not getting hurt in the end isn’t bad at all.

I am happy. That’s all that matters right now. I just hope that I would be able to manage whatever consequence this happiness would bring in the end. ๐Ÿ™‚

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Sometimes, you will just come to a point wherein you would tell yourself, “Get over it… get over it.”

 

 

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Not all things …

Not all things are meant to be understood…some should just be accepted.

— the essence of acceptance and understanding..ย 

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In the End by Linkin Park

It starts with
One thing I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time

All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away

It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on, but didn’t even know
Or wasted it all just to watch you go

I kept everything inside
And even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be
A memory of a time when

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn’t even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn’t even matter

One thing, I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how

I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised

It got so far
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me in the end

You kept everything inside
And even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be
A memory of a time when

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn’t even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn’t even matter

I’ve put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There’s only one thing you should know

I’ve put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There’s only one thing you should know

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn’t even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn’t even matter

The lyrics says it all.

It hurts a lot.

I wonder why.

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Dear Future Mate…

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I have been attending a Bible Study Group in the office these past few months. I must say that, yeah, I do enjoy it. I enjoy the theme which is about finding the “right one” and I also enjoy the company of those I go with. Two weeks ago, we were asked to write a letter that we would dedicate to our future mate. At first, I thought that it was funny but I felt excited because I have been dreaming of writing a letter to the one I truly love but, yeah, unfortunately I don’t have one yet. So, I grabbed this opportunity to write my heart out. And since this is a personal blog, I decided to put it here and share with you, guys, how cheesy I am. Hahaha! So, here’s what I wrote (Just don’t mind the grammar lapses, please. :P) :

Dear Future Mate,

Hi, Honey! How are you? You don’t know how happy I am when I met you. After God-knows-how-long, at last, I found you! Thank you for taking care of me, for loving me, for accepting who I am and who I am not, for believing in me, and for trusting me. Thank you for listening to me and for understanding everything in me. I am so lucky to finally have you. Hindi ko alam kung ano mabuting ginawa ko para ibigay ka ni Lord sa akin. Totoo nga ang sabi nila, “All good things come to those who wait.” Well, you’re not just a good thing, Honey, you’re one of the best things I’ve ever had.

I am so sorry for all my short comings. Hindi ko alam kung saan ka humuhugot ng pasensya para sa katigasan ng ulo ko. I am very thankful to meet a very optimistic person like you. You never fail to listen and to give me your best advices sa tuwing nagrereklamo ako sa kung anu-ano. You are not only my boyfriend, you are also my best friend, adviser, critic and brother. Words cannot express how much I love you and how thankful I am having you in my life. I am not perfect and I know that we may have the downsides of our relationship sometimes, but I know that we can overcome all those trials that we may/may have been encountered because we know that God is in the center of our relationship. Let’s keep it that way, Honey. I know that there will still be loads of problems that we may encounter but I know that with God’s guidance, we will overcome them all.ย 

I know that we still have to go a long way, Honey. Pero, alam ko na kakayanin natin ‘yon. Kapit lang, Honey. Kapit lang tayo sa Kanya at kapit lang tayo sa isa’t-isa.ย 

Thank you for everything, Hon. God Bless!ย 

I love you! ๐Ÿ™‚ย 

Love,ย 

HoneyLove ^_^

Haaaaay. Haha! Yeah, literally, I sighed after finishing that one. Actually, I think it’s not the best one that I could ever write because of course, I was just imagining, and worse, I cannot/do not imagine someone while I was writing that one. I can’t even imagine saying that to my crush. Haha!

Well, I guess, that’s it. Haha! ^_^ (I just don’t know how to end this entry. :P)

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Mars :)

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Because we haven’t seen each other for a looong time, we made this day a very special one!

We met somewhere then ate a loooot! ๐Ÿ˜€

I went with her to her house then we talked til we dropped. Haha!

I had a stroll with her and her boyfriend around their subdivision and in other subds as well. That was really fun!

We then went to a local food store to eat our all-time favorite kwek-kwek. ๐Ÿ™‚

I do not smoke but I tried theirย Vape, a sort of an e-cigarette and I must say that it was sooo cool! Haha!

Then her boyfriend gave me a ride to the bus station going home.

This day was really a blast! I missed her, them, so much! ๐Ÿ˜€

This girl is my closest friend since college days, Robelene. And oh, her boyfriend and the father of her son, Archie. ๐Ÿ™‚

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Warrior Me! *._.*

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There’s a warrior inside us all! ๐Ÿ™‚

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Superman by Joe Brooks

There are no words
To paint a picture of you, girl
Your eyes, those curves
It’s like you’re from some other world
You walk my way

Oh God, it’s so frustrating
So while I disappear when you come near
It makes me feel so small while I blow my lines
Most every time, like I got no chance at all

If I could be a superman
I’d fly you to the stars and back again
‘Cause every time you touch my hand
And feel my powers running through your veins

But I can only write this song
And tell you that I’m not that strong
‘Cause I’m no superman
I hope you like me as I am

It ain’t no lie I have to tell you how I feel
Each time I try
It gets a little more unreal
You walk my way

Oh God, it’s so frustrating so while I disappear
When you come near, it makes me feel so small
If I could reach your mind
Girl, would I find any trace of me at all

If I could be a superman
I’d fly you to the stars and back again
‘Cause every time you touch my hand
And feel my powers running through your veins

But I can only write this song
And tell you that I’m not that strong
‘Cause I’m no superman
I hope you like me as I am

If I could be a superman
I’d fly you to the stars and back again
‘Cause every time you touch my hand
And feel my powers running through your veins

But I can only write this song
And tell you that I’m not that strong
‘Cause I’m no superman
I hope you like me as I am

— I’m no supergirl.. I hope you like me as I am.. ๐Ÿ™‚ โค

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Samibeybs :)

Samibeybs :)

Sabrina Mari — the craziest person I’ve ever met! One of the blessings I am most thankful for. Thanks for a nice Saturdate, Beybs! ๐Ÿ˜‰

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And all these Little Things :)

little thingsย The best things in life are

^_^ RANDOM THINGS THAT MAKE ME GIGGLE ^_^

Rising Sun.ย Oh! How I love to see the sun rising and shining brightly! I feel so refreshed, revitalized and recharged whenever I wake up because of the sun’s rays peeking through the tiny spaces of my window. It’s way much better than waking up because of my annoying alarm clock or blasting sounds from my neighbor’s speakers!

Children Laughing.ย Children’s laughs are so contagious! There was this moment when I was really mad because of some petty things then my nephews suddenly went in my room, where I was, then tried to wear their wacky faces just to make me laugh! Hahaha! That was really funny because they even laughed at themselves which made me laugh as well! Oh, cute little nephews!

E-mails from a friend. I have been receiving a lot of e-mails from a friend these past few days. We just talk about random things and we sometimes even tease each other. Haha! I used to receive non-sense e-mails and online messages before, too! Those were from my college friends and I think, I still have some of those until now. It’s just feels so good to read them again. ๐Ÿ™‚

Morning Greetings. Who won’t be happy when you receive a morning greeting from an office mate when you get in the office? This is one of the best day starters so this will really be a big deal for me. I also do greet most of my office mates everyday because I know how good it feels to be greeted so I assume, and I hope, that they feel the same way. ๐Ÿ™‚

Sticky Notes with Random Messages. Oh how good it is to receive one! I already have lots of these and, not only messages on sticky notes but on sheets of paper as well! There were messages like, “Have a good day!”, “Smile!”, “Thank you!”, and etc. I really feel special when I receive something like these. I just feel so appreciated and loved. And for the givers, I just can’t imagine how thoughtful they are!

Back Hug. This is one of the best things in life! I have this sweet friend of mine and she always surprises me because of her back hugs whenever she sees me. I find it really sweet and surprising! ^_^

Taking Pictures. I have been fascinated by taking pictures of random things these past few weeks. I don’t know why. Haha! I see a lot of good photos in the internet plus, I have this colleague of mine who patiently teaches me how to get a perfect shot! I haven’t got a perfect one, though. Hahaha!

Unexpected Text Messages.ย Same with receiving post it notes, reading unexpected text messages also make me giggle. I feel glad when Iย receiveย a text message that says, “Hi, Jheng! I miss you!”, Hi, Jheng! Good morning!” and so on. I feel so glad to know that someone remembers me on an ordinary day.

There are actually lots of simple things that can make someone’s day really special. Be creative. Be thoughtful. If you’re thinking of a good thing to show to your friend, do it! Who knows? It might complete their day! ^_^

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